I’m baaaaack!

May 3, 2009 rikkijean

Okay, so it probably appears as though I disappeared off the face of the earth, but that really isn’t the case. The past couple months were a struggle to put it lightly, it’s amazing what being laid off can do to a person. I had no idea it would be such a roller coaster. Things are definitely falling back into place, but I have this fear bottled up inside that it’s just all going to crumble beneath me. It’s like I’m too afraid to fall into the lay-z boy of comfort, in fear that something detrimental is going to come a long and shake my boat again, so I just tiptoe on the edge.

I know it’s irrational. I know that it’s pathetic. I know that I need to just live life.

but how?

How can I when I’m terrified that things are going to come and rock the boat my wife and I are so steadily climbing back into. I mean I don’t think we’ve been in this good of a place in a long time, maybe that is what scares the hell out of me.